leaning into the ironing board and my yellow flowered bell bottoms
you sang ruby ruby when will you be mine
then ... your brother died in vietnam you did some time I married young
our last back porch summer
Photograph by Mary W. Farmer
... on a rocky ledge above the river ... lightning shatters black sky ... I awake to your voice ... a poem bittersweet .......... we drift into morning
... two ruffed grouse lived in my meadow ... all that's left ... pieces of their wings ... I kneel beside them ... that's too many / too many broken things
Image by John Audubon
another fall we sleep in an upstairs bedroom on your family's abandoned farm your uncle's car in the driveway bringing chili, cornbread, and gin Photograph by Sandra Cunningham
... sounds the world could do without but I'd miss them: ... kitchen radio playing low ... a phone ringing at the end of a hall ... tires in the driveway
... on a late night balcony ... you trace the great bear above us ... and I the small spiderweb tattooed on your back ... my unchanging constellations
Painting by Joan Miro, "Constellation: Before the Rainbow"
... riverplace / by the window ... you with an amber ale / me with my constant fear ... will you swallow me whole ... or in bits and pieces ....... til I disappear
... filled with water from the well metal washtubs on green grass ... we screamed because we could ... hand me down bathing suits billowing with summer
... windows open to the night / tree frogs calling for mates ... I drift in and out of sleep ... out on the highway a truck crosses over the rumble strips
... at the lake / summer of fifty nine ... mother snapping beans with Aunt Lorna ... lying in the sand next to her brown Buick / the perfect arrowhead ........ my sister saw it first
... running from my bare cupboard life I drive through the wide Nebraska night pull off the highway to cry ... on the radio ... Mr. Bojangles in worn out shoes