... within the call of a whippoorwill just before daybreak ... my back porch bedroom as a child ... the bedroom of the man I thought I'd love forever ... my bedroom now / in this little house near the river
... driving through northern new mexico ... shiprock forever in the distance ... my heart's been in my throat for a very long time ... another hour and I'll head north ... camp along the san juan river / fall asleep at dusk ... pretend I'm not one of the lonely ones
... in perfect blue stillness the hours entered another world ... I became him / he became me ... so ... now I have to ask / did he pass on ... or did I?
In memory of my beloved Buddy (Feb 10, 2011 - Apr 13, 2018)
in the blue restless night praying for still waters my mother comes to me from a place I catch only a glimpse of in a glass I recognize from childhood she offers me a drink
... somewhere between Fargo and Sioux City ... you asked me if I liked your hat ... I didn't say no ...your Mozart eyes ... your sad smile
Photograph by Gilen Linn